I wake to an eerie world

Today I woke up and thought about slicing my wrist. Today I woke up and felt empty. Today I woke up and my mind told me to die. But I am still alive. Today I did not let those emotions win. Today I realized how even more broken I am inside. It is only a matter of time before I give up on this life. I can feel the cold breath of death upon me. I want these emotions to go away. I do not want to deal with this anymore. All these people. All these lies. All these illusions. All this pain. All this sadness. All this anger. All this emptiness. I can’t. I do not want to feel anything anymore. 

Writing between 2006-2009